My first blog entry – the bar by which my anticipated future blogs will be judged!
I’d like to talk about the relationship between giving and taking. I find my biggest turn-on is not what others can do for me, but what I can do for others. It’s strange, as sex is raw and, in animalistic terms, selfish. Yet I get little pleasure from receiving a blowjob, and plenty from giving my partner of choosing the orgasm of their life.
Fingers, toys, tongue and cock, all working in unison to excite and entice, no better feeling than looking at their hips girating uncontrollably, lip bitten, eyes closed, mind on nothing but the building sexual momentum, no care for anything else. I could never do something as crude as sleep with a prostitute, or even pay a stripper, as in the back of my mind I’d know their primary drive would be the money, not the desire for my body.
Now, I’d love that feeling. But I couldn’t TRULY enjoy it, REALLY let myself go, unless I knew she was there, at that point, too. I can put this down to 3 possible scenarios:
Firstly, is it possible that I’m not as secure as I think, and I’m infact sexually selfless as a way of seeking validation elsewhere?
Secondly, have I truly beaten the Machiavellian complex and found a truly selfless act? I find this hard to belive as I’m no more selfish or selfless than the next person.
Or, finally, should I stop thinking, and just get on with it? Am I alone here, or does anyone else get this too?
Comments and suggestions would be very welcomed – new to NN, loving it so far and looking forward to a future of happy, horny blogging…
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