hottlavender's Blog - page 3

gosh....i will be meeting with my plastic surgeon next week....what the topic of conversation will be about?! my breasts of course...if all goes well, i plan to have an implant placed in my right reconstructed flap of a breast...revision number four for my cancer reconstructed breasts....i am sooo tired of not having my natural breasts but then again as everyone reminds me, i am still here?! i need a break someone.....

i was just reading a friend's blog and it made me feel universally connected....i am not alone on this grid....someone else can sympathize and empathize with me.

always be yourself, be truthful, hard working, never stop dreaming and keep pushing for success...

do not let unsupportive peers get in your way and work hard for yourself and your rewards...everything else will all fall into place...

Always thank someone or tell them they are beautiful....free words for free kindness....

i dreamt of him again...only for his touch, his smell and skin. is it terrible to crave for him and have him acknowledge it?

i love the way your mind works....
i love the way you appreciate me...
i love how you respect me...

your hospitality greets me well...
your sensibility taunts me nicely...
your lead heartens my loins...

the touch of your lips are soft...
the smell of your hair makes me quiver...
the feel of your skin is warm...

thank you thank you thank you for that moment......

Ok ok ok....so my day started off a bit crappy.....so I deal with it....time is too good to waste gloomed or upset....it is counter acted with a little catching up with a verrry sexy and intelligent friend...all soooo yummy that erased a grey beginning....."the golden gates opens, and the angels sing"...BIG SMILES.....ok, moving right along so as I drive around running errands (mind you it is raining here in my area, aduhhhh it is the NWP....), i meet around town the cheeriest people despite the rain outdoors....I had a wonderful day connecting with the people and will be the rest of the week....who would disagree with a trip up north to Vancouver, BC, a fishing trip, a small shopping spree, great wine, good company and some fun?! wooohoo, happy happy joy joy......i am a happy girl again!

why does he have to be a bitch and be on my ass about being busy me....when he doesn't get his way, i am the bad guy....fwb?! the cons are starting to outweigh the pros......just saying....

i am a girl and you are a boy....
i long for you to slowly touch and hold me....
i need the warmth of your mouth to swallow me...

tie me up. blind fold me up. play with me....

be that strong,
be that secure,
be that sexy.

make me breathe hard. make me tear up good. make me...

let us exchange heated passions.
let us move in sync.
let us exasperate to nirvana....

let us touch like we have never have and enjoy the day into sunset and equivocate into each other's memory lapse...

Thank you for being...
My Lovely Friend
For you'll never truly know
What you mean to me
Of all the joy you have brought my way
The kindness my own eyes have seen

Your smile is like the sunshine
Always brightening my way
Your generous hand, always there for me
Taking mine, to share the day

Even through the storms that come
You often bring the rainbow
What a lovely friend you are
The worlds greatest... I suppose!

And if I can ever return the favor
I'll be there to make you smile, too
And if you ever need me
I'll be there to see you through

Out of all the people, I have ever met
Through all my days upon this earth
Finding the friend, that I have found in you
The time I've spent has been its worth

By Brenda Conley (c) 2003
[url]http://www.frommyheart.org/index.php?p=1_355_My-Lovely-Friend[/url]

i just wanted to pop in and vent a little....i need your honest opinion on something....should i get implants done? it sucks to have this whole breast cancer issue to deal with....i used to have full 38DDs and my back used to kill me! as my treatment course, i originally decided upon a latissimus dorsi flap as my reconstruction...unfortunately i also had radiation therapy that made my left breast "firmer" .....my right breast is supple somewhat and gaining weight like the rest of me, but my left breast is driving me insane....i guess it's an appointment back with my plastic surgeon or my shrink?! originally i wasn't interested in the implants because of the "feel" and maintenance issues of it all, but surely being "unwedded" or single, makes it extremely difficult to compete with the broads out there....i know it boils down to vanity but the somewhat insecurity bothers me........aghhhhhhh i need my shrink again!

I just wanted to pop in and say hello and see how everyone is doing? it seems to be that time is just fleeing us and almost with hardly any trace of it to follow. what's in store for the 2012 everyone?

i am here whenever you need to talk or catch up. don't be a stranger and no i haven't forgotten you, you, you or you...i am always thinking and wishing everyone, yes you all are my fellow sexies, a wonderful and spectacular 2012.

have all the fun and do not waste anybody's time, including your own! stop and fresh roses from time to time and worry a little bit about the stressors. meditate and exhale with every inch on you.

high noon teas and many more love as always.....

=) LAV